Wednesday, February 17, 2010

....Tomorrow is the beginning......

Well it's been almost one month since my mom has been strange.

My brother and his wife came Wednesday after she passed and have been staying with Dad since then.

Well tomorrow is the day.

The day that they head home - and so starts the beginning.

The beginning of the 'new' normal.

The NEW normal. But hey - i want the OLD normal back folks!

Every day has gotten a little easier - but I havent had to worry about Dad - he's had 'company' there for the past month. I have thought of her every single day. Every single day. Every Single Day.

Things I would have said to her. Things I still needed to know. Things she would have said to me. Dad was taken care of. Mom was taken care of.

Shit. Shit. Shit.

So tomorrow folks starts the hard work. This is where boys become men. This is where the proof is in the 'pudding'. This is it. This IS it.

For those that beleive - think of my dad as tomorrow IS it. His life ....alone.... really starts.



Queen Mel said...

that is just shitty. the thought of the unknown, what will happen.

Although here is the good news, he will be ok, he will have a hard time, he will have break downs, he will be lonely but he will be ok and he will stand on his own 2 feet. It won't be today, it won't be tomorrow but he will.

I will be thinking of your dad and the difficult times he has ahead.

Thinking of you 2

Kimmartha said...

Aww, Suze, my heart aches for you and your family. I wish I had the right words... take care of you, hun.

xo KM