My last post was October 23 - the following day I went to an scrapbooking
'overnighter' with some great friends - thank goodness I did - cause shortly after I went into 'lock down'!
On the Tuesday after this weekend my father had to go to the hospital as he wasnt feeling good - pain in his back - he normally doesnt ask me to take him - normally asks my brother (who is out of work due to illness), I should have known something was up!
About 2 hours into the wait - my dad looks at me and starts breaking down - and says "I cannot stay alone...."
Susan - "well do you want to come to my house?"
Dad - "well - if you'll have me...."
And so Dad came home with me the following night!
Kailie lost her room upstairs - got it cleaned out and Dad moved in.
I have a wonderful nephew who helped wes put a bathroom in downstairs (keeps the morning fighting away from dad)
....We divided the downstairs livingroom in two and made Kailie a bedroom down there......
It has been a huge adjustment - people are very set in their ways!
TV is now in his control - on and watching what he likes when he likes........(watching csi - tv goes off 15 mins before its done) - quite an adjustment for my husband :)
Breakfast 8am, Dinner 12pm and Supper 5pm (moved to 6-630 due to me WORKING!!) ALL made by me- if wes does it - he's a saint - if i do it - its my duty!
I dont go anywhere - "where are you going?" "what time will you be back?" - he cant be left alone - or so he thinks - I work from home - so I'm here all the time
I took a day off in November - thinking I'd relax - he had me out grocery shopping - picking things up - which is normal - the next day my internet connection/phones went down - no work that day or the next - well a bit but not much - three days off for 'nothing'!
Thank goodness for one of my brothers - he comes two or three times a week - and usually once a week takes him for supper---
I did get out to Halifax for my birthday - and went to see Mamma Mia - my sister came and stayed the night - but left at noon - we called from Moncton and he wanted to know when we'd be home - hmmm not used to this :(
Sort of feel like i'm 16 again ......
On top of this - Oldest daughter is getting into trouble and has issues that I dont know how to help (went to counseling but that ended yesterday????) Her latest boyfriend - is a real piece of work -
My youngest is doing ok - but as some may know we've had our struggles with her this year as well.......and have to closely monitor :)
December 13 my basement flooded - luckily I was home during that time - and caught it early - at most 1.5inches - EMO tells us all flooring needs to be replaced - no insurance coverage.....
December 20 - jammed my finger in my office door - off to hospital for 3 stitches to hold the end of my finger on - yuck! On my right hand - and not a christmas present wrapped!!!
Got my gifts wrapped in time - had a great christmas - it was sad without mom - broke down a few times -
Im disappointed with how many visit Dad - some dont really 'care' for me - which is fine - but he's your father/grandfather - make an effort -cause he's not going to be around forever!!
Did i mention I work a 'more than full time' job on top of this???
So Now it's January - where the hell did the time go???
I know that some friends dont understand - or maybe just didnt realize what is happening or wont understand what I'm going through - and that is ok. I am truly sorry if you feel 'ignored' or dont feel i'm being a good friend - but right now I dont have anything else IN me to give......
I gotta end on a positive...........good things that have come from this:
I have a fabulous friend who doesnt hesitate to help - she cleans my house every week - talks to my dad and he looks forward to her visit (I do too!) (yeah i pay her but thats not the point)....
Another of my friends is so supportive - I know that I can just call her up and she'll be there -
My brother is a life saver - my niece brings food once in a while - both are greatly greatly appreciated!!!
My older brother/sisterinlaw, niece and nephew - gave Wes and I movie money and a g/c for a restaurant - so we could go out - I cried - I know it seems dumb but it was the thought/gesture that got me :)
Kailie loves loves loves the routine (defintely routine!)
I wont regret doing this - some day I will be thankful that I did it........even with the 'stifling' i feel
I have to save money - I dont go any where - haha -
I've lost a couple pounds (literally 2 haha) probably from not going anywhere - and not eating out - those great home cooked meals haha!
Wes and I are trying to plan to go south -we werent going to but we both need it - (he's been fabulous of course :) ) Cant wait to see how we make out with that - and how dad makes out (gotta get someone to look after him and the girls - Niece has offered)
So if you are wondering - that's what's going on......